Credit > -blueskyx
By the way, moving blog again, haha... To make life easy for me, and to make it simpler for Lynette, I'll post up a list of DBSK songs I currently have... I'm also trying to count how many songs I have so yupp... 'O'-정.반.합.(正.反.合.) (Ver. D [CD+DVD Type]) [RERLS] Disc 1 Five In The Black Heart, Mind and Soul Tri-Angle The 2nd Asia Tour Concert 'O' Live Album -> [HAHA. 36 songs, so I'm too lazy to copy and paste the song titles...] Rising Sun Singles Premium Live Japanese Solos OST - Vacation / Millionaire's First Love Japanese Singles Others Korean Singles SM Town Blah, after an hour of pasting everything in... I still don't know how many songs I have of DBSK at the moment, who wants to be so nice as to count for me?
http://www.lettersofthepast.blogspot.com/
Will do something about the blogskin one day...
Or maybe later.
LOL.01 'O'-정.반.합.(正.反.合.)02 세상에 단 하나뿐인 마음 (You're My Miracle)03 Hey! Girl04 Get Me Some05 I'll Be There06 네 곁에 숨쉴 수 있다면 (White Lie...)07 Remember08 이제 막 시작된 이야기 (The Story Has Just Begun)09 On & On10 Phantom 환영(幻影)11 You Only Love12 풍선 [Balloons]01 ZION02 Sky03 Begin04 Choosey Lover05 DEAD END06 High Time07 Proud08 約束09 miss you10 'O'-正.反.合 (J)11 I'll be there (J)12 Step by Step13 Hello againAi Senai, Ai ShitaiAsu wa Kuru KaraBreak Up The ShellEternalHeart, Mind and SoulHug (Japanese Version)IntroludeKotoba wa IranaiMy DestinyOneRising Sun (J)Somebody To LoveSomebody To Love (a capella)Stay With Me TonightStay With Me Tonight (a capella)01 믿어요 [Miduhyo]02 My Little Princess02 Thanks To03 Tri-Angle04 내 여자친구가 되어줄래-05 Whatever They Say [A capella]06 Million Men07 지금처럼08 I Never Let Go09 꼬마야10 넌 언제나11 The Way U AreTri-Angle (Chinese)01 Tonight02 Beautiful Life03 Rising Sun (순수)04 바보 (Unforgettable)05 내가 허락할 테니 (Love Is Never Gone)06 Love After Love07 Dangerous Mind08 One09 Love Is10 Free Your Mind (Feat. Trax)11 작은 고백 (Your Love Is All I Need)12 약속했던 그 때에 (Always There...)13 Unforgettable (Chinese)14 Rising Sun (Chinese)Summer Dream
Step By StepSkyMiss YouBeginAshita wa Kuru KaraShine OnCrazy Life [Yunho]Wild Soul [Changmin]Maze [Jaejoong]My Girlfriend [Yoochun] (Extremely typical)Rainy Night [Junsu!]Beautiful Thing [Junsu]Million MenInsa [DBSK]Insa [Jaejoong]All In Vain [Air City OST] (Made me think of Sex in the City...)Fox Rain [Vacation OST]Harudal [Air City OST]Asu Wa Kuru Kara (vocal & Piano)Forever LoveForever Love [A capella]Forever Love [Bell' and Snow' Edit] (This one's Christmas-y)Harudaru [Day Moon; JP ver of Harudal]Lovin' YouMy Destiny [Remix] (Like a capella, but bleh.)Proud [A capella]Ride OnTogetherTogether [Kids' chorus ver.]Try My LoveYakusoku [Promise] (Extra NSB Mix)Last Angel [Koda Kumi feat. DBSK]Promise You [Anyband feat. Junsu]Hug [Korean, Japanese, Chinese, English, A capella]My Little Princess [A capella]Oh Holy Night [feat. BoA]Whatever They SayTimless [Zhang Ri In feat. Junsu]Show Me Your Love [DBSK & SuJu]Drive [DBSK]Evergreen [DBSK]OasisAnd lots, lots more... But I don't have them yet.
It is rather obvious that you care more for her, than for me.
Haha, Hooi Choo says I have to update. Why eh?
Anyways, since she updated her blog, I will luh...
We had debates for english today... Topics are :-
1. Teachers are not relevant to the school education system and should be done away with.
2. The legal age for drinking should be lowered to 16.
3. Homosexuals should be accepted and recognised by states and given the same rights as us.
I'm for 1, against 2, and undecided for 3.
Originally my group (the new Indian girl, Chih Yin, Kah Huan, Jessica and I) were against 3. But then hor, got two other groups want to qiang with us, so we (or rather, I) decided that we're be the proposition.
I tell you ah, the entire thing is almost like a one-man show. Out of the three groups for topic three, only three spoke. HAHAHA, one from each group.
And *cough* I obviously began 'ji dong'. *cough* I ummm, passsionately argued for the rights of Homosexuals.
Wheeeee... Ms Vicky said she's not satisfied with the debate on topic 3... Because ummm, I ummm, veered way off topic into ummm, sensitive issues and couldn't get back on track in time to counter the opposition... NOOOOOOOOOOOoooo.
But anyways, Monday still have chance so hahaha, History and A Math!
And during history, we were supposed to organise in descending order, the causes for WW1
- Nationalism / Empires
- Assasination of Archduke [Austria-Hungary] Franz Ferdinard (I still remember...)
- The Alliance / Entente system
- The Arms Race
Jasmine and I were for Nationalism / Empires as first. But our two other group members thought the assassination was more important. So it ended up that the Nationalism / Empires was our first choice, then the Assassination, followed by the Alliance system and lastly, the Arms Race. Jasmine and I were supposed to umm, explain our choices. But I screwed up and forgot what I wanted to say - so I crapped my entire speech Jasmine. ;D
History on Mondayyyyy!
Hooi Choo and Jasmine will be there, so I won't fumble with the stupid explanation again??
Ehhh Hooi Choo, I ever the tired liao, so long enough post right? Its longer than yours ok!
I'm extremely bored, so I will not blog about random events about today that I actually remember.
Lynette complained about Shermin being a pervert and I walked up to her and shook Shermin's hands.
-.-
E. Math teacher was really blur today. I don't know how 'b' to the power of three mulitplied by the power of four, can be still 'b' to the power of three. Ok, I know it makes no sense, but she made so many calculation errors in just one question. Or was it purposely done?
OH. CELEBRATED MR HO'S BIRTHDAY TODAY. I DON'T THINK IT WAS THE CELEBRATION THAT CHEERED ME UP; SEEING EVERYONE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN BRINGS BACK A LOT OF MEMORIES THAT OBVIOUSLY CAN NEVER BE RECREATED.
Don't ask me why it was in capital letters, it looks cool?
Ehhh, I'm listening to the songs on Lynette's blog right now. I've just realised that Lovin' You is indeed a really sad song. Can hear the tire screeching leh! I think someone 'died' or something, but must go check the lyrics first.
OH WAIT. I remember.
About meeting at the train station, when things are no longer the same.
But one keeps silent, wishing to procrastinate.
But the singer wants it to last.
Something about Lovin' You, the warmth of one's hand fades.
Lovin' You, they seem to be getting further and further away.
OHMETIAN, now I'm making myself upset again.
I am told I need to sleep. Bah.
I haven't even started on my compo.
Damn, I WILL do it tomorrow morning...
Will I?
I never actually realised it, but having something to cling on to, something to hold close to you, actually stablises oneself.
Maybe its just me, but when I was concentrating on an aspect of my life, I felt secure, that I had something to turn to.
This few weeks, this few days, have been difficult.
We all seem so happy on the surface scratch, but there's really so much about Chih Yin, Jessica and Hooi Choo that I don't know.
Yes yes, I've been running away, I know.
But will you fault me for wanting to find stability, to find an anchor that will prevent me from floating away into oblivion?
Blah, I must concentrate on a zuo wen about shan liang de chou ba guai. Stupid topic, what am I supposed to write about.
HAHAHA, almost forgot. My guildmate introduced me to someone who lives in Singapore. I was supposed to make small talk for the sake of giving her lian[face] (not that she knows that 'lian' is but anyway) And then we both end up super pissed at each other.
She's trying to do something, someone tell me if you can think of the link between two Singaporeans linked by one girl. And now, I have to go save my reputation, I refuse to be typecast as a ah poh.
Oh wait, would they know what an 'ah poh' is?
I don't expect you to understandI don't fault you for calling me that. But I beg of you, to understand that circumstances are different.I beg of you, to not judge me because I don't say everything. Whether I like it or not, there're some things that I need to protect.And if you don't like it, it shows that you aren't a friend. Respect.That's all I'm asking for.
I think I'm crumbling from some psychological pressure.
Heh, I don't know.
Home's been turbulent.
All I want is to become more vio-
Heh. I must concentrate on Chinese.
I aim to finish my bao zhang bao dao by recess tomorrow.
heh. I hate this.
Oh wait.
Mustn't forget.
Yee Shan is my da jie leh!
And she's in NCC.
LOL.
It has been brought to my attention that I haven't blogged about the First Week Of School, I shall. But then hor, didn't Y.O. say that we aren't supposed to blog about school? Haha ok, I'll blog about who I hang out with in school, which I just realised.
Let's think hard, who do I appear to hang out with the most? What group can I classify them under?
NCC.
Which shouldn't really be such a surprise, seeing that I used to hang out most with Lynette, but I can't now, since we're in different classes.
In class, I sit between two NCC peeps, Chih Yin is in front of me, Hooi Choo is behind me!
I'm Jovi's yi po.
I occasionally keep in contact with Sophy, Kelly and Chen Ting are merely acquaintances.
Apparently, I know NCC so well, that I could tell them how much more time they had before to fall in this afternoon. xD Its actually quite interesting, except that I've never spoke to Wani and AJ (and they're in my class! The horror of it.)
Haha anyways... I'm E. Math rep, but my E. Math teacher hasn't asked for me, so yupp. I'm getting away scot-free from responsibility! (at the moment anyway.)
It was either choose between Physics, Chemistry or E. Math. My sec1 math teacher teaches me Chemistry by the way, so I blocked that out. Then I would never ever hand up science homework on time, but for E. Math, I probably will. So I decided E. Math is the safest choice.
The teacher doesn't seem very demanding anyway...
Anyways, I'm very sleepy, at 8, I was about to nod off on my bed. Took the bus to school today and not used to it, so I guess that could explain my unusualy sleepiness...?
4 minutes to midnight...
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
Its funny how you declare to stop caring about something, or someone
Went out with Zae and Lynette today :D
And for three months, you actually stick to it
It was rather eventful, so you two don't go complaining about being bored at home!
You actually forget what it was like with that something, or someone.
We were supposed to meet opposite Zae's house at 11;
But all it takes, is one little blow to let reality come crashing down on you again.
And the night before, Lyn even told me not to be late
Rather belated unfortunately, when all the time, when we were together.
*cough* And guess who was the late one?
When I was trying so damn fuckin' hard to repair the damage
Lyn of course!
You were there, critising me behind your back.
Pot calling the kettle black luh.
Perhaps back then, I would really have given up on you
We went to Far East first, you know how crowded the bus was?
Perhaps I wouldn't have a fragile friendship with you now
We should have taken 174, and not 171.
But its still a friendship right?
So yeah, went to Far East, and ...
Perhaps.
Zae got some bandung thingy, that frankly speakly, looked disgusting
But it still irks me, that you thought of me as everything, but a friend.
Like the fever medicine or something
I obviously got chocolate
I don't know...
LOL. Actually, it'll take too long for me to recount everything
It just really really stings.
Just go to Zae's blog?
Do I honestly still care for you?
http://loveanthems.blogspot.com/
Haha, I'm just tired, and I promised to go make more np on neopets.
I WILL NOT reduce myself to begging my cousin for help.
That ass.
I actually managed to dao him during ahma's celebration
Not bad eh?
Maybe they're right, I should get a stupid boyfriend or something
Lovin' You on repeat.
Listened to it at least ten times liao...
Yoochun and Yunho seriously should NOT have sung luh.
Sheesh, but the song's kinda sad.
But I love it.
Even if it reflects what I've been through :D
Perhaps especially because it reflects what I've been through?
HELLO :D I'M BACK!
HAHAHAHAHAHA... I was back two days ago though, or was it three?
Only people I managed to contact were Lynette, Azalea and Hannah.
My phone worked in Tasmania and its screwy here in Singapore.
Stupid Starhub needs to do something luh!
Haha anyways... What can I say about Tasmania...?
Ummmmm... Errrrr...
It was friggin' cold. Seriously.
Though the weather was kinda extreme.
In Strahan, it was like Singapore weather one day, then the next, it was chilly winds and a sudden drop in temperature, like 16 degrees?
Then at Cradle Mountain, it was clear skies for the first day, we could even see the mountain, and apparently, the mountain can only be seen for only 35 days of the year?
AND THEN, the next day, we had rain, fog and hailstones!
Poor car had to get whack by loads of tiny pebble-like hailstones, lucky we didn't go for a walk...
I'm glad to be home :D
The heat, the INTERNET, and where all my friends are...
Glad you miss me Harriet!
And Lynette, is this enough of an update?
I feel the sudden urge to drown myself with loads of coke.
Lucky I'm going to be on a plane later! :D
My mum hopes that we'll get upgraded, somehow.
Oh wells, I'll be asking to be going to the toilet to lao sai the entire night
But somethings must be satisfied :D
I'm paranoid I guess. :D
Going overseas now has it pros and cons
I'm gonna miss out a lot of action with the role-play from my guild
But I'm gonna run away from reality for a 'lil while longer
I think too much, I know.
Oh wells, if I still remember THIMUN Singapore the last day when I come back, I'll blog about it.
See ya' all in two weeks time somewhere in Singapore people!
LOL; I'm quite aware that I haven't posted when I should have, and that my tagboard is draggy again. By the way, if you don't intend to be bored by reso descriptions, analogies, and funny questions/notes, you're welcome to leave immediately :D
THIMUN Singapore 2007.
Day One, 21 November 2007, Wednesday.
I was terrified the first day I got there, extremely terrified. Estonia was sitting next to me in the assembly, and I had offended her a couple of nights ago. Oh, not to mention, El Salvador as well, I think. Lucky for me, half the delegation was there by the time I got to the SALT Centre. Joan (senior) and I were to be in the same delegation, and the very first thing I told her?
"Follow my resolution but change the wording,"
The first day was rather slack, since we were just to merge and make friends/allies. In the end, it was a large group of us femmes, Eritrea (Kimberly), Albania (Michelle), USA (Clare), Guinea Bissau (Si Hui), Niger (Jazlyn) and me. The main submitters of our Child Labour reso was supposed to be USA and Lebanon, but they suddenly merged with Luxembourg, without informing anyone prior to that. I wasn't annoyed with them for merging, but rather because we weren't inform.
Day Two, 22 November 2007, Thursday.
We were to debate on resolution for every topic, and just nice, our child labour one was chosen. The death penalties one was pretty pointless, since we all knew our stand. And the the freakin' abotionalist states were intent on forcing their ideals upon those who still practice the capital punishment, and we weren't happy with that. Needless to say, it failed!
Our child labour reso was next. It was a disappointmen really, the clauses stated how to solve the problem, but didn't mention where all the money would come from. Next year, if I'm gonna join THIMUN Singapore again, I must be a co-sumbitter and make sure that my demands are put in. Clare told me, "Oh, we don't need to look at your reso because we have you points already." YEAH RIIGHT. It was full of bullshit and would not help industralizing countries at all.
Heh, can't remember the other four, but yeahs. The sexual exploitation one passed, much to my chagrin. As if Ethiopia can afford to compensate the Eritreans... NEVER MIND, everyone was thinking of Japan and no other country. And the stupid Hwa Chong guy can't even speak in third-person, let alone defend the country he was representing. -.-" Stupid, arrogant chit.
Day three, 23 November 2007
I have loads to say about this one.
Indonesia and I began sending notes to each other. Before THIMUN, we had been speaking to each other on MSN, and then the first two days, completely dao-ed each other. And we've resumed our dao-ing again, heh freak. We debated over five resolutions in one day, it was tedious. Every time we had a notion to move into voting proceedures (Notion to move to previous question), the chair would not entertain it. Which sucks, considering how there's only this much you can say about death penalties and not infringe on national sovereignty.
There were two child labour resos, two death penalty resos and one other on sexual exploitation. In total, only one reso about the humaritarian aid one, and it failed the day before.
Ok, child labour reso is the one that I want to vent about, and complain about, and scream that Joan is a freakin' dumbass (and I'm already being as nice as I can)
Let me quote the stupid clause 2c;
c. Ensuring that universal primary education in newly industralizing countries (NICs) is available and mandatory from the ages 6 - 14 by utilzing incentives such as,
i. The dispensation of free lunches to children attending public schools between the ages of 6 - 14,
ii. A 30-50% monetary compensation of former salary to the parents of children who were previously employed as child labourers,
Newly industralizing countries are countries that have undeveloped economies. If they can't even care of their own people, why would they bother to 'comepletely eradicate' child labour?
It's freaking stupid, impossible to implement, idealistic, ridiculous, and UNREALISTIC.
(Hmm... THIMUN Singapore has reminded me of a lot of words to make a point)
The only reason it passed was because STUPID El Salvador said this, "This is the very last resolution on the topic, so do consider the children it would affect."
WTF?
Loser.
Cambodia's one was good actually. He was open to all amendments, except for the freakin' fact that we didn't have time to amend his resolution. WHICH IS WHY THIMUN IS SO INEFFECTIVE AND WHY I WAS WORKED UP A DAY OR TWO OR THREE AGO.
Darn.
We had some dinner and dance thingy at the zoo. The food was nice, but kinda ruin but the events we had. Barely ten minutes after we had found a table for our entire delegation from Crescent, we had one admin staff (Ding Jie), some gay-looking guy representing Germany in GA2 (Tai Boon?) and Aaron/Aron/don't-know-what sitting at our table. Freakin' fantastic isn't it? And TAKE NOTE, it was Sandra making a fool of herself, it was fuckin' Joan. Flirting/screaming with/at a guy while I'm eating is simply not advisable. I suggested switching seats before she got the point, but she HAD TO scream at the Iceland and Germany delegation, Hwa Chong and Raffle JC respectively.
We all then got dragged off by the ever-eager Sandra, Joan and Celestine (Surprise, surprise.) Julienne and I promptly opted out of the dance and sat in a corner with the bags :D Which is actually quite fun, since you get to observe all the people and meet someone from your delegate.
Let me point out, that Tai Boon and Ding Jie and Aaron/Aron/whatever looked gay. I mean c'mon, a guy in a bright green top, a skinny dude with a botton-down/ and I can't remember the last one... How can they not be gay? You should have seen them, I was expecting Shermaine to be the worst, but she was surprisingly acting more mature than I thought.
Seeing Joan and Celestine running around chasing and being chased. Joan getting physical. Joan and Celestine trying to jump on dunno-who's back. It's traumatising.
Cai Yi and Julienne left at 10. So it was me, and Shermaine looking over the bags. She was kinda annoying that night, talking about wanting to dance with Tai Boon, but said that the dude had to ask her. But she had a point, and a certain standard of morals as compared to Sandra and Joan. Urgh.
Then stupid Tai Boon went out to ask me, if Shermaine and I were gonna dance. Me, dance. Yeah RIIIGHT. You want to dance with Shermaine, go ask her, I'll simply say no if you ask me to represent her. XP He looked sorta 'dejected' but you should have seen him when he went back into the room. Simple-guy-look but definitely not simple at all.
I left at 10.45 I guess, totally didn't inform them that I was going. Pretended to be taking a call, and I zaoed asap. I might have liked it I guess, but Sandra and Joan had long put me off any thought of having fun... PFFFFFT. Next year, I'm sure Joan and Sandra won't be there, extremely sure. Thank God someone tipped the teacher off about something that turned Shermaine against them.
When I went home, I immediately went online. Don't know why I guess, but I did have to clarify some matters about the next day's general assembly. Ended up talking to Germany, from my assembly, thank goodness its not the gay guy.
Crazy Germany still told me that my seating position was fun, since Iceland, Japan, Cambodia, El Salvador and Burundi are the ones who are the most interesting, and make the stupid remarks. Right. Germany's interesting I guess. Besides Indonesia, he was the only one who made an impression on me to be intellectual. In fact, the only intellectual Singaporean male in my assembly.
"Does the delegate not realise that humans hardly agree with one another?"
We were talking about stupid comments and I told him that the previous comment was completely unrelated to any subject. So yeahs...
"Notion to applaud the delegate of Guatemalas's effect,"
His reso ended in a tie, even after we recounted thrice so yeahs. Those against it were rater happy and Portugal decided to raise that notion. Besides, it was the very last reso :D
Well, Germany's gossipy at times. But I found out that Tai Boon is gay, so looking for an opportunate time to break Joan's heart. Girl, its payback for all the times you insulted me.
"The bunch of testerone-deprived girls are beyond my comprehension. You're welcome to decipher their actions and words" Freaking idiot. Still asked me to advise them even after I said that.
Heh, moi's bored, and my dad wants to chase me off the internet. I'll save the last day for a post tomorrow then.
Day four, 24 November 2007, Saturday.
Perhaps I am paranoid now, perhaps I am thinking irrationally, but things can't be explained at this moment, can it?
I extended my hand in friendship to you,
thinking that you were someone to trust.
I was in a state of bliss until that one tag,
a tag that you thought I would not read,
on the blog of a friend that was my close.
Whys and what-ifs have run through,
nothing, simply nothing I can figure out.
A rare faith I had placed in you, however,
it was smashed in a moment, by you,
and by the friend I trusted so much,
perhaps too much.
I'm suddenly so tired.
I simply what to go to sleep, and never wake up.
This Rui Qi, current psuedo-delegate of Ethiopia from god-knows-where, is in a friggin' annoyed/mortified/whatever mood. So you want to comment about this post, :D
Beware.
It's your own problem with you suddenly get an enraged reptile snapping after you.
FORUM : The Skeptical Council
QUESTION OF : Validity of THIMUN
Submitted by : Pseudo-delegate of Ethiopia
THE GENERAL ASSEMBLY,
Aware of the worthy people who had been nurtured through THIMUN and have made a name for themselves,
Notes with appreciation the numerous resolutions that have been passed with huge success
Notes with concern the frigid, inflexible way THIMUN is held,
Reminding all psuedo-member states that the point of MUN is to tackle issues in a creative way,
Strongly urges all MUN Directors to reconsider the way MUN is modelled after the UN,
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I just had to do something, didn't I? I can't possibly vent anger in another post, though what I'm typing will probably lead to it. That mock-resolution was just stating part of my vents, readers are advised to read with an open mind, of course the authoress has hopes that the readers may emphatise with her.
- - -
(As I say, beware.)
Tell me what I did to deserve that? Did I not save your friggin' ass by passing off my resolution on Child Labour and Exploitation as a merged resolution between you and me? I make an attempt, and you scorn me. You take me for granted, you think that because I don't speak so much, that I'm nothing. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE THEN? Of course, besides you pretending that you actually wrote a reso on Child Labour and Exploitation.
Of course I will be annoyed, enraged, if people dare to pity me, because I'm YOUNG. Because I'm unusally younger than most participants. That because I fumbled with my question during Points of Information time, that you can say that I asked questions that had no help. WHAT ABOUT YOU? Did you say anything? Or were you sitting there, in the corner, twiddling your thumb and making decisions based on what you think, and not what your country stands for?
Who's the one, who goes around asking, what are you going to do? And then, based on some small fact you gleaned from Celestine, you make a freaking decision, which is of course, against your country's best interest. I'm sick, and tired of you.
But of course, aren't I that obedient little junior of yours that you will always, hit me in fun, and how can I forget, 'accidently' spit on me. Oh yes, you say that people are bitchy, then what about you? HYPOCRITE.
You said, I abstained from Cambodia's resolution, because I hated him, because I had a personal grudge at him. HELLO? I didn't go against it, and unlike you, I didn't recklessely make decisions based on that little bit you know by what I, and Celestine tell you. Let me tell you this, I abstained from the resolution because it had its good, and bad points, and because I wasn't sure of what Ethiopia would think. The delegate of Cambodia's resolution could have been good, if we had the time to make amendments, and he WAS going to, based on what everyone asked him to clarify and such.
WHAT ABOUT YOU? Were you sitting there, stoning until the time to vote came? Were you not the one who said that you HATED thimun, were you not? Then why, pray tell me, is there this sudden urge to degrade me, to push my spirits down, to mock me while pretending to be a friend? Why?
There is just one thing I need to say, I depise you. At least I contributed something to an amendment of Cambodia, unlike a friggin' airhead like you, who just complained, and whine, and pointed fingers that people who were innocent.
And I'm done, and I got to face her another day. heh. Just not in a good mood right now I guess, THIMUN is affecting me too much. I'm starting to call too much about what others think, and what they say. I'm not being myself, I'm cowering in a quiet corner, and I turn to jellied and forget what I want to say when its my turn to ask for a Point of Information. If only they didn't help me because I were younger.
If only.
(Oh and, am I allowed to laugh at how different Micky sounds in All In Vain – Air City OST? Wuhbiang, he sounds like some forlorn ex-playboy who got hooked. Get what I mean right…? On second thoughts, never mind.)
“Colour of the wind, and the colour of the air, when I think of you I understand your (dunno-what) dream,
Show your (what?), your long (?) and your…”
“You say it’s all in vain, I say you come back to me…”
But I like it.
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My gosh, so typical, so predictable, but somehow, it is very sweet. Been listening to some premium Japanese live solo songs of DBSK, and Junsu’s the one that stands out the most. Perhaps it is because of the style of the other four songs, perhaps.
I like Changmin’s use of vocals for Wild Soul, but other than that, it gives me goose pimples. Yoochun’s My Girlfriend is, and Yunho’s Crazy Life is, very expected of him, first see the title, and instinctively know its him de luh.
Perhaps I should have expected it, I don’t know how to explain it? In a sense I can understand why fans would scream over a singer, or a group. Unfortunately though, I’m still not altered enough by Crescent to be affected. Maybe when I’m on a chocolate high bahs :D
AND AND, how can the vocal and piano version of Asu Wa Kuru Kara not have Junsu’s vocals “Haruka na…” (?!), after all, its called the VOCAL and piano version.
Darn, where are the vocals?
(It is extremely unbelievable, unexplainable, and I absolutely do not like it.)
Now, if only Jaejoong didn’t start Asu Wa Kuru Kara on such a low note… And if only they had Junsu’s “Haruka na,” in very single version…
If only.
[WILL BLOG ABOUT TODAY WHEN I HAVE TIME TO. STILL HELPING JULIENNE WITH HER RESO SO YEAHS, BEAR WITH ME AND MY SUDDEN INACTIVENESS, AGAIN.]
[OH AND, THIS WAS TYPED IN THE MORNING SO YEAH.]
Yes yes, quite aware that I haven't blogged for -
For a long time.
According to the ever-sarcastic Amelia, I used to blog more than she ate rice, and now I blog less than she eats vegetables.
I finally got a tag from Amelia, albeit a rather scathing one.
I promise to make this an extremely long post, before I have to back to writing at least a draft for a resolution on death penalties.
I do actually have a lot to blog about, but heh, I was intending on changing my blog skin first. However, something was wrong when I tried to changed it this afternoon, so I haven't changed it. Pity. I was getting rather tired of seeing a bright yello-orange screen whenever I check my blog. (Which isn't a lot these days, but it was.)
OK ummm... Let me try and remember the events in the correct sequence. Last week.
Ah yes, streaming results, bs, and Sunday.
It is bittersweet to know that I'm in 3G2. Well yes, I did get my first choice, however, my heart kept asking, "Why? Why couldn't I get into G1? Or why not C3?" I guess, after so long, I still want more, I still hope for more. It is rather a huge bunch of unwonted feelings, a bag of emotions that just won't let me control 'em. Rather bloody fantastic actually, when I have no need to keep my emotions under a tight rein, there's nothing better for them errant feelings to keep in order. When I want to hide, when I so desperately want to keep that marble facade, it just cracks.
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I won't be with Lynette, the thought is rather terrifying. I keep asking myself, "Are we still friends? Have we begun that slow, mental separation?" Some part of me wants something new, but the majority wants to cling on to what-had-been. The times Lynette and I stayed back in school, more often or not, I was simply waiting for her to finish whatever she was doing. How I managed to waste hours doing nothing, but in her company. (Not that I'm saying that spending time with Lynette is wasting time, but I can't quite put a word to it.) How we would end up watching videos, reading fanfics, and how could I ever forget (?), singing. How a part of me would keep insisting that I needed to get home and study for some test, and that I would blatently ignore it and continue staying back. The unknown stab in the heart when Lynette would want to go home early, when her words seemed uncaring, cruel even. The times when both of us would have doubts about our abilities, when one would sink into a low, another would try to comfort. And I'm quite regretful to say that, I haven't been able to do what I used to be so good at, caring.
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Lynette, call yourself ugly one more time, and I just might think of picking up my idiotic tablet battery and go give all your ex-classmates a huge whack in the head for their words, and I mean it. Say you aren't able to sing another time, and I might consider casting away my dream of becoming a singer. Say you're boyish again, and I will do my utmost to make you scream, and squeal, and shriek, and actually, I am able to do that. :D
I am very sorry that I haven't been able to speak words of comfort when you are at your very lowest, that even then, you still are there for me when I start doubting myself. Everytime, without fail. We have gone through loads, no? From the time when we first met in class when you were transferred in, till now. Frankly speaking, I don't remember what you look like back then, just that fuzzy outline of you walking into class and heading towards me. Be it memory, or dream, or just my hallucination, its something I treasure.
And even after I decided to abandon you, to sit with Hannah, you were still there. Distant you may have been, but you were still there, and that matters the most in the end. I'm quite aware that there was a lot that was unsaid between us, that there still is, but we're working on it, no? We seem to talk more about slightly less superficial stuff, even though I'm glad to have share my DBSK-craze with you. I DID give Sandra some suggestions.
AHAHAHAH... There isn't much to say for today, since I spent most of it at Sandra's house. I should go check if she blogged about it, heh.
Should be going out tomorrow, Yee Shan, Azalea, might have Jovi and Lynette, if Lyn's mum allows. But if Lynette doesn't come, I'll be VERY disappointed, not to mention that I wanted to pass her the hoops I got on streaming-result-day. The bigger ones or the smaller ones ne? Maybe the smaller ones, after Lynette come after me when she accidentally yanks (YA-ANKs. Lynette should know about this.) her hoops and hurts her earhole AGAIN. Biang, I got 18 pairs of earrings/ear studs at home and I can't wear it for THIMUN luh!
Darn it.
AHAHAHAH... Anyways, I got a new song that I like, or make it two. Both the style very the different from what DBSK usually sings, but I like it. Perhaps my taste changing again. But I'm hard-core dongbanging right now. Must be proud of me rights? I'm still faithful to DBSK lehs!
haha anyways, Changmin's my favourite now, Yunho's leading with two months of my liking, mayve Changmin will break that. Even if Lynette piqued my interest about Junsu with a few choice words during one phone coversation. As for Micky, last one to like bahs, besides Elvira, there will always be one that you won't like as much as the rest. Even then, there would be some sort of hierachy, anyone who dares to oppose is a huge hypocrite and baka/babo. :D
Anyways, been dragging on too long for my ending. I'm still looking for Lovin' You, since Lynette wanted it, and I got Insa. <33>
HAHAHAHAHA
I've been VERY evil, and not blogging...
For... How long?
About two weeks?
Haha anyways, been busy with THIMUN.
I almost finished my Child Labor reso two nights ago.
I'm starting on my death denalty one, but don't know what to write.
I WANNNNTT TO MERGE!
Stupid China, Stupid Max.
Why the hell won't he just come online so that I can ask him if he'd like to merge
Since China DOES have corruption anyway
Ummmm...
I'm going on too much about THIMUN,
But I can't think of anything else to say
Because my life now revolves around THIMUN.
SPASTIC
Anyways, got forced into shopping for formal clothes this afternoon.
Got two new blouses and a skirt.
Heh. My mum only bought because she can wear after that
She predicts that I'd never ever wear such clothes,
Unless I really had to.
Maybe I should break her heart and say I like it and I want to wear it out?
Not that I'd keep to my promise anyway...
Aiyiesh, so no point.
Maybe I'll just hjack the blouse to make my relatives think that I'm a normal teen.
Though I should thank them a lot.
I pierce ears called vain,
then they suggest that my sister should.
WHAT THE HELL?
Wuhlao, must thank them for their vote of confidence in me luh
So my sister is better than me.
SO what? So I'm nothing in the eyes of all of you? She's always better than me, studies, looks, hell, she can even sing. You don't care when she flares up at you, you chide me when I have a perfect reason to be pissed off, and you call me a sulk when I'm just stoning. I don't get it, you support her when she joins art club, you give me a look when I join art club, and I joined before her too. You bought her materials for her art, you couldn't bother to ask what I ever did. You didn't even rejoice with me that I had gotten into the committee. My CCA will affect my points for Os, hers won't affect hers at all. So what is it about her that draws everyone to her side? What is it that everyone prefers her over me. What is it that turns everyone against me?
Why can't you ever show me some of that love between you and her? I'm nothing but that older kid who can't live up to your expectations, someone who can never be better than her siblings...
I honestly give trying to be that nice girl. I honestly giving up trying to be the best I can.
If all you think all I can be is a debater, when you think she can be a high-flying executive, and Ben a president's scholar, I really slump in defeat.
I, once again, give up. On life.
God knows how long I took to get to the page of my dashboard;
And God knows how long I took to get to the page to type out my post
I even managed to make a tuna sandwich and eat it!
And I was taking my own sweet time too.
Gotta go to Bukit Batok MRT to meet Lynette and Cui Xiao in an hour's time.
Oh man, if only I didn't throw out my shirt,
Now I have NOTHING to match with my brown 3/4 pants
I have loads and loads to post :D
But first thing;
I pierced my ear
>.<>.<
My sister truly thinks I'm crazy now
Because she tells me I don't seem like the person to scream
Or to be a crazy fan or something
I've only screamed once at home
Because I dropped my Rising Sun CD
and almost couldn't catch it.
And then, my dad and bro left
My mum, sis and me went to 'shop'
Supposed to luh, but then we sidetracked to Aries
And the topic of ear-piercing came up.
LOL.
I told my mum I wanted to,
And then she and my sis dragged me down to Lee Hwa Jewellary to go pierce
Don't they seem more excited than me?
And I'm sorry Elvi!
My mum was gonna sponser me to pierce my ears,
even if it doubles as my Christmas present.
Total cost like what?
1oo bucks?
super ex- right?My mum also bought a silver/white-gold stud for later on.
It's a dolphin.
LOL.
And she threatened to wear it before I could.
WTH. Haven't seen her in it yet though
Or I haven't noticed,
since I just remembered.
I think tuition 老师 noticed that I pierced my ears
Cause she was looking and laughing at me during class
Sunday 28th October 2007
I hate going to Church.
Valencia and I might as well not be part of Dora's bsg luh.
I mean, they've bonded over a year
and then you suddenly dump us into that group,
Even after nearly a year,
we still won't bond.
I simply can't stand them and their ways.
Ok fine, Amaris is nice,
But Chelsea and Samantha?
Please.
Tuition work was difficult.
We're during sec3 quadratic equations,
And I forgot what I learnt the week before.
LOL.
I was faster than Brandon,
BUT.
Because I made so many careless mistakes in one question
I redid it at least five times,
So he overtook me
I'm still pissed off that I let him do that.
Heh.
Went for Feli's birthday party at night.
It kinda sucked, since my thinking was on a different plane from them
They played with fire.
Even Janice.
And Feli's mum even supervised it.
I honestly hate that wannabe Venus.
But at least, under everything
The Felicia I knew from P6 is still lurking there.
I honestly miss her bumbly ways.
If she has a boyfriend,
Much has really changed.
Monday 29th October 2007
Went out with Lynette to Bugis!
We has problems contacting each other
because there's something wrong with my phone
(I think I dropped it too much)
Went to Diva first,
And they had a 50% sale.
Super cool.
I bought something for the class chaletgift-exchange thing
But 我不舍得 give away.
But I'm broke, really really broke.
I'll think of something.
Lynette bought two earrings for only $5 luh!
I was tempted to buy,
but didn't have enough money,
SINCE I had to pay back Sophy.
Haiz. Damn sad.
Now I can only hope that
1. My mum gives me money for the chalet
2. I get Lynette's gift during the chalet
3. I somehow find more money in my room
4. I use my old notes that I've been keeping
And I just remembered that I dumped a pouch of coins in my textbook drawer!
But still not enough.
Heh.
Anyways, I think I typed too much, seeing that it seems so long in this tiny box that I'm typing in.
Lynette and Cui Xiao coming over soon!
I wonder what we're acutally going to do
Aiyuh, now I have to find a decent shirt
And I really am too lazy to walk ten metres to my room.
Bah.